Its with a very heavy heart i must tell you all that my Eva has bone cancer in her front leg....... it started about dec. she had a puffy joint and it was warm, we did xrays and it looked funny, but my vet said not like osteosarcoma, maybe an old infection in the joint. i tried antibiotics and xrays about a month and a half later, no change. my vet said if it were osteo, there would be change. she did well, limping on an off, but not bad, next day she would be better. well on tuesday she didnt want to get out of bed, she limped so badly she didnt want to move much. she ate well and i gave her rimadyl and on wed. she seemed better, but i had Bill bring her in so we could xray again. well, its bigger, definatley a cancer, maybe not osteo, but its there. I dont know what to do, my doc thinks amputation would be way to traumatic for her.... radiation to shrink it, we are going to check on prices, but its in the thousands and i just dont have it. she said she could do a bone biopsy to see what kind it is,,, but all that is, is to tell us if its the really bad kind, or just the bad kind. and its painful and i think kind of a barbaric procedure... im thinking of just managing her pain until she cant go on......... she seems alot better today, she is on rimadyl and tramadol right now. i have a script for some T-3's if this doesnt work. Its killing me knowing that i will have to make "that decision" in the near future, on a dog that seems so happy. I dont like acting as God, taking a life.... I know its for the good of the animal and its humane, but it just kills me........ its like being alive, happy one minute and the next someone is ending it all for you, by their choice, not your own. .... i deal with this stuff every day and it eats at me. most times i just steel myself and know its for the best and do it. but other times i can not do it and break down and some one else has to help. I know im just going on and on here, but i just dont know what to do.
Eva is the kindest animal i have ever known,,, she is beautiful, loving, and is so strong. To think of what her life before us was like and then for her to have a horrible disease that will take her before her time, is so farting unfair i want to scream!!! she lived through all kinds of horrors, she should die a dignified old woman in her sleep.... A few years ago i lost 2 dobes less than a year apart to DCM.. im not ready for this again so soon.... why do they have to go so soon? it really sucks...
I know you will all understand, and thanks for letting me blab on...
Sharen, Eva, Rueger, Chevy and Tango