LOKI-- goes to forever home
#121
Posted 30 August 2012 - 01:04 AM
I took him to vet today and she said-- negative on the leptosparosis... so its def his kidneys failing.. she said his numbers again are off the charts for failure.. however she is puzzled by his potassium and a few others that mean he is not in that dangerous of state either.. she said she is very puzzled at these blood work readings showing so high.. but he is perky and not at all how a dog with these numbers should be acting.. she told me to take him home.. she adjusted his dcm medication to take less pressure off the kidneys and in doing that it slightly risks his heart...with the current DCM.. this made sense to me...
here is my thoughts.. many of you understand this .. I will not let him suffer and vet said he doesnt seem to be suffering but may be feeling like we do when we get a bad flu..that is why he wont eat "at all" she gave me an appetite excelerator.. for once a day.. she said we will re-evaluate tuesday.. I am watching him every second until then of course..
I am confused as I understand he needs to be let go-- I need to free him from this way of living.. this is not his standards, or how he would want me to let him live.. he hasnt ate a proper meal since last Sat.. food intake today was almost zero.. he has lost 12 pounds in almost a week..
however he is still doing things he likes.. riding in the car as if its old times.. chasing a critter out back with the same enthusiasm when I verbally encourage him..so I am thinking I dont want to miss anything that he could get better and then go back to a post DCM diagnosis life that was pretty good..
this one he is living now is not.. I am forcing little bits of food in his mouth and he is like the gentleman he is taking it.. so slow and careful.. but with a look of why are you doing this to me mom?--
other things happening and he is weak.. I just hope I am not missing ANYTHING and he could come back. vet said its possible the situation could improve with him starting to eat again, but she doesnt think so...
I am guessing this trying to hold on to this hope is normal- almost being in denial of some sort.. I just dont want to turn off his life light if there is anything I am missing.. anything I did not see that could let him come back to a quality of life.. .. I know I am doing everything possible to try and feed him.. help him... I keep thinking maybe just wait like the flu and it will pass and the kidneys will start to function at a level to give him a decent quality of life.. after all how did this happen all of a sudden...
then I get sensible and know with his DCM.. he lived 9 months just like Lexa since diagnosis.. he is getting weaker and I need to let him go.. Dr. Karen said keep him with me the weekend and we shall visit tuesday.. I am hoping tmrw he will still get a large percentage of the day as seeming to have joy.. sleeping so much... I may have to do this earlier.. hours seem to matter now.. I dont feel like my sharp usual thinking self.. I feel foggy making this decision..-- Lexa did not suffer one second.. but this is different, I know he is not feeling well.. so I must let him go.. I just keep thinking I dont want to let him go too early... he is still enjoying some hours of his day...
Ill get there.. Ill watch him very close after he wakes and see what kind of day he is having.. if there isnt much there for him-- I will make this decision when needed.
thanks again all of you...
I thought of you- Sarah and Joaquin today, more than usual.. Dr. Karen told me about Stone's amazing arrival...-- wow I told her he found dobbie heaven with you two and will be loved and cherished for his forever now... she was touched by your beautiful boy..--
My Cherished Loki -SCD ( May 2008- August 2012) * http://www.secondcha...ic=6378&hl=loki
Baby Koda
#122
Posted 30 August 2012 - 05:43 AM
Perky is good... but he is perky and not at all how a dog with these numbers should be acting..
The body is an amazing machine, it knows what it needs. Sleep is a healing mode, he is sleeping more than usual in order to heal. His body has probably shut down his appetite to compensate for the kidneys not functioning properly. Take a cue from all dogs, and live for today...tomorrow will take care of itself.....in due time.
Give Loki some lovin from me. And here is a hug of courage for you.
Susie Q
SCD's Darlin' Darcy - CGC
SCD's Mr. McBump - CGC
SCD's Liddle Diddles - CGC
Forever in our hearts:
SCD's One Cool Dude (7/05-4/10)
Ralph (SCD) (10/99-6/05)
Rex (SCD) (6/93-9/99)
Sheeba (BYB) (11/82-4/93)
#123
Posted 30 August 2012 - 08:22 AM
There is something to learn from thier determination.
Dreams become reality one choice at a time.
S.C.D.'s Rhue ( Little Red Rhuebarb) 2008 or 2009 to March 2021
Forever your paw print in our heart's
S.C.D.'s Darling Darla Blue(LaLa for short)
Our Velcro Love Bug ( approx D.O.B Jan,2004 to June,2011)
& one of the many Queens prior
Autumn ( Black Lab)
Sept 1996 to Feb 2010
#124
Posted 30 August 2012 - 02:40 PM
It matters to the one you save.
SCD's Out on Bail CGC (December 17, 2008- April 27, 2018)
SCD's Stone Soup
SCD's Sixpence in my shoe
SCD's Hurricane Alley CGC (August 12, 2007- September 11, 2014)
SCD's Easter Buddy CGC (August 12, 2007- July 5, 2012)
Page, Princess Extraordinaire - (July 9, 2000- July 31, 2007)
#125
Posted 30 August 2012 - 05:54 PM
today he was worse.. last night he was figidy.. I kept playing in my mind.. maybe heck eat and at least feel better to where he was before h e lost his appetite.. maybe this and maybe that.. this morning he was weak.. very weak.. I put the usual canned food with tiny bits on a spoon.. he hated this way to eat for the last "5 days"-- the last 3 were the worse.. he was such a gentleman.. taking the little bits.. I did that this morning with his pills-- he ate icecubes I had in the car..
we went to a few places he loves.. he was tired... not himself or even to get exicted.. he had a real struggle to get in the truck, even with the two twin matresses I always layed down for him... he looked even skinner in just this lst 24 hours..
I kept kissing him , telling him how much i loved him... he was kind of aloof........ just not feeling well.. off we went, much earlier than I had planned.. I wanted to releive him as I was thinking I was rushing this too much...
the actual letting go was hard for me.. he went as you all know who have done this with little notice... just sleep.... I felt the end was to rushed and I did not connect with him.. or something felt just so wrong...
I think its been the last 5 days of him feeling so badly.. I held him and let him go.. tried to look into his eyes for one last look before the medication was applied..
not a good day.. and this back in the house thing.. this life without him.. I remember it well from Lexa..-- I keep playing it over and over .... its as if it happened so fast.. he was sick.. diagnosis kidneys failing.. boom time to put him down..
thank you for your love out here.. and back at you all.. I dont want to be a member of this brokenhearted club ever again..-- I have not even processed this yet.. these last 5 days were terrible..
My Cherished Loki -SCD ( May 2008- August 2012) * http://www.secondcha...ic=6378&hl=loki
Baby Koda
#126
Posted 30 August 2012 - 06:18 PM
Susie Q
SCD's Darlin' Darcy - CGC
SCD's Mr. McBump - CGC
SCD's Liddle Diddles - CGC
Forever in our hearts:
SCD's One Cool Dude (7/05-4/10)
Ralph (SCD) (10/99-6/05)
Rex (SCD) (6/93-9/99)
Sheeba (BYB) (11/82-4/93)
#127
Posted 30 August 2012 - 07:03 PM
Deb
#128
Posted 30 August 2012 - 07:11 PM
It matters to the one you save.
SCD's Out on Bail CGC (December 17, 2008- April 27, 2018)
SCD's Stone Soup
SCD's Sixpence in my shoe
SCD's Hurricane Alley CGC (August 12, 2007- September 11, 2014)
SCD's Easter Buddy CGC (August 12, 2007- July 5, 2012)
Page, Princess Extraordinaire - (July 9, 2000- July 31, 2007)
#129
Posted 30 August 2012 - 07:31 PM
SCD's Wild Child Gamble CGC
#130
Posted 30 August 2012 - 07:43 PM
Tears tears tears and more tears, you
are in my HEART, I am so sorry.
This is just all TOO MUCH
"Until one has LOVED AN ANIMAL, part of
their SOUL REMAINS UNAWAKENED"
"
Yesterday is "HISTORY", Today is a "GIFT" and Tomorrow is a "MYSTERY"
"Always always try to be the" BEST YOU CAN BE"
Do not walk in front of me - I may not follow.
Do not walk behind me - I may not lead.
But walk beside me - and be my friend.
May you always have Love to Share
Health to Spare
and Friends who Care
Forever locked in my Heart
"I CARRY YOUR HEARTS IN MY HEART"........FOREVER
My "WHITE ANGEL".....Sweet sweet Schaudeh
4/17/1999...............5/14/2013
My "Bounty Hunter"
11/6/2000.......8/3/2009
My "Miks Von Rom Mateese"
7/6/1990..........4/4/1999
"I LOVED you yesterday, I LOVE you today, and I will LOVE you tomorrow'"
for you have never really left me
#131
Posted 30 August 2012 - 10:14 PM
#132
Posted 31 August 2012 - 07:05 AM
Run free at the Bridge with Lexa, Loki........
Currently part of my treasured family and helping to make life fun and busy:
Hunter, the chocolate Labradeagle (or Beaglador)
Terra, the tall, gorgeous red Doberwoman
Waiting at the Bridge and forever in my heart...... Igor, Max, Savanna, Logan, and Tasha
#133
Posted 31 August 2012 - 09:25 AM
#134
Posted 31 August 2012 - 09:36 AM
#135
Posted 31 August 2012 - 10:44 AM
#136
Posted 31 August 2012 - 12:41 PM
#137
Posted 31 August 2012 - 01:04 PM
What a wonderful dober-Mom you've been.
As others have mentioned, we've all been thru it but that doesn't take away the pain.
My sympathy to you.
#138
Posted 11 September 2012 - 10:02 AM
I am finally catching up on reading the forum. Life seems to have a way of getting out of control. I am shocked and saddened to read this thread about your precious boy, Loki. I remember all your posts about Lexa, your heart break over her loss. I also remember all the posts as Loki settled into his new home and life with you. You gave him all the love a dobermom can give to her wonderful dog(s). Your pictures of him always fun to see.
My tears fell and a lump too hard to swallow formed as I read your posts. I am so very, very sorry about your loss of this beautiful boy. Words are inadequate at a time like this. Please know my heart and prayers are with you.
Lee Ann
HQ Back in Time of Phesika "Griffin"
HQ Prevailing Grace "Gracie"
Waiting at the Bridge:
Stadtwald's Boston Red Coat "Cody"
Aradeena Ruark's Lacey "Lacey"
Logan & Lexi littersmates
SCD Up-C-Dazy "Dazy"
HMDD Brody
SCD Bella
We can judge a heart of man according to his love for animals.~~Immanuel Kant
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